Jmz

The talk tonight was good. It's as though a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I am glad I didn't hold back anything and said what I wanted to. I feel so refreshed now.. I feel like I am me again. Knowing for sure what you want, and what you expect has always been on the top of my itinerary. I've waited so long to hear what you had to say. And it was all I imagined it to be. Not one word out of place, not an expectation crushed. Looking at how you drew a mindmap last week simply to lay it all out for me to see, I couldn't have been more tickled. But I know now how deeply you've thought into things. And guilty as charged, I should have given you more credit for the person that you are, and have been.

I am awfully aware of my flaws. I am aware that I am not your best bet. But because you have chosen me, I shall no longer judge. You might doubt your decision a few years down the road (yes I'm talking years here). But, come what may, I will always try. What happens along the way, God forbids, if things take a left turn, bear in mind that the solution is never to give up. However, negativity aside. I see a happy ending.. Insya Allah.

I am off to read Breaking Dawn now. And for every description of Bella Swan and Edward Cullen, I can finally substitute Edward to being you. And Bella, me. Muahaha I'm sleeping tight tonight.

So tell me baby; are you happy?