It's 4.02am now, and I am not asleep. Doing some last minute packing. Guess I'll just make up for loss sleep during the bus ride to KL. I will be away for a week more or less.. Miss me k? Thanks.

Love you all ♥

I don't want both of you to have a misunderstanding because of me. So I shall back off. Stop smothering me with words. If they are all you have, use them wisely.

On another note, what do you do when you miss someone very badly? So bad, it actually hurts. What do you do?

Parents have been away for a whole week now. And I have managed to keep the house clean, and unburnt. Haha. Catching up with them cousins never gets tiring despite always being the "baby" in each and every conversation.

A few more days for catching up with friends, and then I'll leave for KL on Christmas. Tak dapat pergi Bahrain, seberang laut pun jadi lah. And then when I return I hope I will be occupied with work :) Insya Allah.

Apart from slacking and wondering how to stop myself from spending anymore money, all is going on so smoothly. Alhamdulillah. Oh and this I have got to touch on. I don't understand why so many guys can't seem to enjoy Twilight. I am sure we girls don't walk out the cinema smiling simply because we just witnessed the best looking guy ever, but it is also because we liked the movie's storyline. Annoys me so badly. And eh, I am not even a die hard fan of Twilight. Hah!

Nonetheless, sorry if I turn you down when you ask me out because I am trying to save all that I've got left. The measly amount of money which is supposed to last me till Jan 12th. I am doomed. Till then, I love you all.

The exams are over. But first, I have got to catch up with sleep. *yawns*

I am super irritated because 2 weeks back, MDIS Student Services Centre called me. And informed me that I will be barred for the examinations due to outstanding fees. So fine, I did my research and true enough, Dad forgot to pay for the final instalment. The very next day, we went to settle the payment and I called my batch co-ordinator, informing her that I've settled the final instalment. She checked the system, confirmed that it was done, and we ended the call with "Thank you" (s). Fine.

So I had already managed to sit for 3 of my papers, when they called again. Once more, telling me I have outstanding fees. I could have sworn that I felt my blood rushing to my head when I heard her say, "You have an outstanding fee of $1605". My mind started to form words I never knew I could say. Then sentences began to construct by themselves, all I needed to do was blurt it all out. But no, because my parents were in the car, I gathered my thoughts and said,

"Haven't I already settled this issue 2 weeks back?"
"*in a Philipino accent* It is not in our records Ma'am. If you have the receipt you could come down and show it to us then we can call it settled. Otherwise you will be barred for your next paper"

(tone of voice changes)

"Look. I don't know what is wrong with your system but this is a mistake. I have already settled this and I don't see why I should prove it to you if your system is the one at fault. Please check with my co-ordinator."
"Ok Ma'am hold on I'll check our records"

(after 5secs)

"Ok it's settled. You've paid the amount"

(goes out of control because its so obvious she didn't even bother checking first cibuuu angry sia)

"Please get your facts right before you jump the gun. What if I didn't have the receipt? What if I couldn't prove it to you? I'd have to pay the damn $1605 again?! Do something about your system."

"Ok."

Ok?! That was all she said. Ok. No sorry no explanation no nothing. ERGH. However on a much much much lighter happier note, it's my last paper tomorrow. Scream with me.

"Bailamos, let the rhythm take you over, bailamos. Te queiro, amor mio. "
Enrique, my current heart-throb.

Anyways, I spent over $200 yesterday. And I wasn't aware till I got home and looked at all the receipts. The Christmas Season isn't doing any good to my wallet man. Despite the exam period, nothing in my head seems to be stopping me from spending. In fact, it's an element of acceleration towards my shopping. This sucks! I feel that I have a very weird sense of satisfaction. I buy something, feel satisfied till I see another item that I like. And if I don't get that, I'll feel incomplete. Haha. The economic crisis doesn't seem to be affecting me at all. And that is horrible.

Parents are leaving in 2 days :(

So, instead of mugging for PR, I am looking for things online. How do I stop myself from spending? Ibu & Dad will be gone for 2 weeks and if I keep spending, I'd have no money to fend for myself. I am doomed.

*looks at above picture*

Is this what you call love at first sight? ♥

The day might have took a left turn, but it was all fated to be this way. Worse, it sucks that I am not able to be there. My deepest condolences to Pak Ngah & Family. Last but not least, Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha you guys.

Warmest Regards,
Nat ♥

The end.

It's been very long since my entry was about me ranting on and on regarding something i like/dislike. So here's one coming up right now. *cracks knuckles*

I dislike the fact that chain mails/text messages are always being passed around. It's like a disease, so rampant, so widespread. It's almost.. invincible. It's always in your mails eh? No matter how many times you direct them to your junk mail, they keep coming back. Always and I have no idea why/how. As much as you just want to direct all of them to your junk mail, though, you can't. Because your friends are the ones who keep forwarding the chain mails/messages. It's getting on my nerves! And like that isn't bad enough, you freaking get cursed and threatened at the end of each chain mail. How bloody irritating is that! Firstly, who the hell are you to predict my future and tell me I am going to have 10years of rotten luck?

Or worse, if it's like this, "Kirim ke 11 orang. Insya Allah 2 jam kemudian kamu akan mendengar khabar baik dan mendapat kebahagiaan tetapi jika tidak menyebarkan maka kamu akan mendapat musibah benar demi Allah ini amanah dan jangan dihapus sebelum menyebarkan"

I cannot even begin to explain how many times I roll my eyes and come up with mean sentences to reply to the sender everytime I read something like that (as above). Who the hell are you to swear upon God that I will be overwhelmed with bad luck? Or if I'll be happy for the rest of my life. I mean seriously, lie to yourself if you want, but don't play with people's minds and threaten them. We all know that people who are religious or just plain ignorant will fall for it. So then you get a form of a thrill (I'm assuming) when people keep passing them around. A sense of accomplishment or something? OH MY GOD I AM ANNOYED. So please, with all due respect, whoever's reading this, don't forward these messages to me. Need 11 people? Scroll through your phonebook but skip my name. Thank you very much.

Don't get me wrong, I do believe in fate and luck and whathaveyou. But not when someone drags in God, and "makes" someone do good. That just means you won't do good because you want to, but because you are intimidated by an empty threat. No pun intended. Love you all still ♥

Oh me perdone, si me da demasiado tímido, pero tal vez usted es la razón por la cual, el amor, me siento mariposas.

Happy Birthday Nur Syuhadah Muzakir :)

May you be blessed with good health & be constantly comforted by a fulfilled heart, Insya Allah.
Need anything, I am only 2mins away. I will always be here for you ♥

I fly like paper, get high like planes.

Haven't been able to fall into deep slumber these past few nights. End up affecting my concentration level in the day. And I can't afford for that to happen because the exams are in 7 days exactly. Not considering the fact that Hari Raya Haji will take up one full day. I am doomed.

"If a politician is married and is holding public office, a journalist is allowed to probe into his private life IF he is said to be having an extra-marital affair. But you must remember that he is innocent until proven guilty. The approach should therefore be very discreet. You are moving into investigative journalism."

That's written in black & white in my Journalism And News Broadcasting textbook. Cool eh? Discreet. Macam Mission Impossible. Ohwells, let's see if I'll have the chance to do that, ever. Enjoy the Sun everyone!

Regina Spektor

Suppose I never ever met you
Suppose I never ever saw you
Suppose you never ever called
Suppose I kept on singing love songs

Suppose I'd never fall in l♥ve.