Always said I would know where to find love, always thought I'd be ready and strong enough. But some times I just felt I could give up. But you came and you changed my whole world now.. I'm somewhere I've never been before. Now I see, what love means. You're so unbelievable. And I don't wanna let it go. Something so beautiful.. flowing down like a waterfall. I feel like you've always been, forever a part of me. And it's so unbelievable, to finally be in love. Somewhere I never thought I'd be. In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now. Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now. I was lost and you've rescued somehow. I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me. And I've never been here before. Now I see, what love means. When I think of what I have.. and this chance I nearly lost. I can't help but break down, and cry.

How does one remain so positive?
We all get jealous. That's just it.
We all get jealous.

The camera has been the best excuse for Dad & I to roam around the streets and bond. Haha. Weird, I must say. But I am very much thankful for we share the same interests. Suppose we didn't, I'd still be stuffing pennies into my piggybank hoping that I'll have enough to buy me a beauty such as moi D90. There's still so much more to learn, and honestly I do not know if I'll be able to keep my hands off the lovely for this upcoming week. Major exams in 1 week, and boy oh boy.. I better nail it. One more thing, I should stop listening to "Misteri Jam 12" on Ria, else I'd be hiding under my blanket everynight while my parents are in Bahrain. I am no wimp, really. But the stories told on that segment seeps right into my mind and gets re-processed by my imagination.

Anyways, Mr Padhman did mention that one with good English, does not write with profound words. He/She must be able to create sentences with perfect construction. Even with words that aren't that extravagant, the message will still get across. So, eat that you mofockr. (I rarely swear, but this is exceptional)

Wish me luck for my exams, and have a great weekend ♥

Tag Replies:
Nadya - Linked sweets!

Diy - Hehehe I love the song.

Fathin - Thank you love. <3

Haszirah - Not black what, it's white darling. Love you too muuuahh.

Raily - What's Marina Barrage? Hahaha I have no idea. It's near the Singapore Flyer.

Tell me what we're gonna do now

You don’t have to make your mind up. I just wanna take my time with you. If that’s alright, it’s alright. Oh forgive me if I get too shy but maybe you’re the reason why, love, I’m feeling butterflies. Something bout the look in your eyes. Oooh it just makes me feel so right. When my mind’s void, you’re my joy. You’re the dream when I sleep and hey I’m for you yeah I adore you, you’re everything that I need. And I love how you love me. If I’m made for you, you’re made for me. It’s too good to be. So tell me what we’re gonna do now. Yeah tell me what we’re gonna do now. Funny how my world keeps spinning. Sometimes you can be so silly, you know just how to make me laugh. Ooh, your skin is so lovely. It moves me when you touch me. I know that you got my back, it feels so safe when you hold me. It’s already like you know me. Oh right now, see baby I love how you make me smile. Don’t leave please stay awhile. Let’s make this happen, I don’t care how.

Everything has been too good to be true. And as a result of that, I have been in the best of moods almost everyday. However, people in turn, take advantage of that. Look, I am happy. Not stupid. So I am still fully capable of registering information & generating response. Hence if I were you, I'd learn how to shut my trap. I don't know if your friends just don't care, or they have had enough of you too. All I know, is that I am getting sick of how you speak so freely, how you think everyone is as numb as you are. Hah! To think I bothered respecting you.

I don't deserve to hear what you said. Honestly, it still hurts.

I love the way your eyes always meet mine.

I love the way you feel.

I love the way you never fail to put a grin on my face.

I love the way you smell.

I love the way you're so sharp.

I love the way you love the way when I touch you.

Nikon D90, I love you. ♥

Sweet Sweet Saturday

They were discussing, so they claimed.

"Makan tak ingat dunia!"

This was HIS idea, honest!

Finally spent my weekends with my parents. It has been so long since I last managed to. Out to the warung pisang goreng & JUSCO, we spent the whole say, 10hours in JB. I enjoyed myself. And long story short, I love my parents. They are ze best ;)

Botanic Gardens in a while. Hope it doesn't rain.
Till soon!

Thank You

This entire entry (very image heavy) is especially dedicated to my dearest camera crew. I am feeling utterly emotive right now, hence I hope you'll pardon the next many many sentences. Haha. As much as the past week has been a bore, a huge burden, or (insert every negative expression here), I will definitely not deny the fact that I had had a lot of fun. Even when the Sun burned our backs, even when the rain clouds gathered above our heads, even when Windows Movie Maker kept dying on us, even when we felt really bitchy and wanted to squeeze each other's eyeballs out. All that and more - I am grateful for. I am sure along the way we must've at least got on each other's nerves (at least) once/twice. Doesn't matter all of that now, because I dare say that even if our movie doesn't turn out to be the best, we know we'll be able to say that we did our very best. And, at the end of the day, really that's all that matters most. Look on the bright side, how many groups are actually able to sincerely say, "It's okay, we had fun anyways" I believe we all can. All 5 of us. You lovelies will be the cause of me missing the dip term. Three cheers to Santa Kels Productions & Nutter Pictures.

Thank you so much to you 4. I love you all. Muuah! ♥

The hardest thing to do is to let go. And that's exactly what I have to do. You came, you conquered and you left.

Oufreakingch.

Since more than one person has asked me about my long absence, I shall explain myself. See, my group and I have been travelling around Singapore to film. Film shots of the nicest places in Sg. And I must admit, as much as it is a hassle to lug around a tripod for the camera, perspire a hell lot, worry abt transport, listen to the radio for weather reports - it is a lot of fun. I love all 4 of you a hell lot (Sophia, Kevo, Tiffy, Geraint). I will miss school.

Oh anyways, I'll be back soon with pictures or even videos. Goodnight all.

"Life is too short for drama - so kiss slowly, laugh insanely, love truly and forgive quickly but remember what it taught you.."

Then it hit me, I am only 17. So why in the freaking world, am I worrying about things I should be happy about, and sulking over the things I should be grateful for.

Live, laugh & love. Because who knows.. tomorrow might never come.

Enjoy your weekends ♥

I am actually honestly, very very tired. I am tired of turning people down. Males, in this case. No I am not admitting fame or shit like that. It's just that I feel it's about time people know I have feelings too. Seriously. What dyou take me as? An easy catch? Please, spare me a thought. When I turn you down, I hurt too. It hurts me as a person, as a girl. Don't try drowning me with guilt because I don't deserve it. Do not think you can come showering me with sugar coated phrases and expect me to fall in your arms. It takes more than that. It takes effort, it takes honesty, and it takes time.

Time time time!

Why the hell are all of you rushing me as though I'll just suffocate, self-destruct and die without an other half? I am happy the way I am. I might have problems but if you think I am going to need a "man" to solve them, then I wouldn't want your help/opinion. Seriously. Think! Geeez.

This is going to sound random and mean, but one thing I cannot stand about bloggers is how they try their best to use a reeeaaaalllllyyyy rrreeaaalllyyy high standard of english, and then fail to pull it off anyway. Sometimes the words they use are profound beyond profound, till I wonder if they actually understand what they are trying to say.

They try so hard to make the sentence seem complicated, till the construction of the whole sentence goes haywire, making it gramatically unsound BUT with really chim words in it.

No I am not good with words myself, but at least I do not insert words like supercalifragilisticexpielidocious right smack in the middle of a sentence where it certainly doesn't belong.

Apparently, I am feeling feisty today. And I have a lot to say. Red bull really gives you wings.

When Kevo showed me the text from Raam earlier today, my heart did double backflip. And I simply couldn't wipe the smile off my face. I wanted so much for him to win, and he did. Obama won the US election. Obama, the first black (african-american, in case you're still sensitive over these issues) president. It might not have anything to do with me, but I don't know - I've been rooting for him all this while.

His win is called a "historic victory", and I couldn't agree more. I was listening to the radio in the morning and it was said that McCain was leading with 8 electoral votes, whereas Obama only had 3. In case you don't know what I'm talking about, this is how voting works. Or how I think it does. But I ain't making this up. Anyways, no matter how many citizens in a state votes for either McCain or Obama, it doesn't actually matter. What counts at the end of the day is the Electoral Votes, as I have mentioned above. Electoral Votes comprises of votes from people of higher posts. Senators, mayors etc etc. In short, I am very happy with what America has decided on. For the first time.

**"Obama, 47, will be inaugurated the 44th US president on January 20, 2009, and inherit an economy mired in the worst financial crisis since the 1930s, two wars in Afghanistan and Iraq and a nuclear showdown with Iran."

I am very certain he will be able to take this on man. My gut feeling tells me so, and my gut feeling never lets me down ;)

**"Obama's historic inauguration will complete a stunning ascent to the pinnacle of US and global politics from national obscurity just four years ago and close an eight year era of turbulence under President George W. Bush."

A paragraph that said it all. Ahh, my eyes are twinkling with pure merriment. Finally, an end to killing the innocent. Insya Allah. I'm at the library now and I have no idea why the man beside me is breathing rrreeeaaalllyyy heavily. As though he's gonna pass out anytime soon. Kinda getting on nerves actually. Ciao all.

** Credits to Yahoo.Sg News

My Uncle is just the nicest man on Earth. The airline tickets were actually $1500 a piece. And look at how much he's reduced it to. Tsk tsk. Am I jealous or what? He CCed this to me ok! Hahaha.

Howwwwwever,
I will have the house all to myself for a whooping 10days. Or more, if my parents decide to rent a car from Bahrain and drive to Abu Dhabi instead of flying there. Exciting or what! ;) And and and I am finally done with my Journalism assignment. 3 down baby, 1 more to go. All's good. Alhamdulillah.

Also, I will have something huge to announce in say.. 2-3days time.

Till then,
Love you babies ♥ (or not)

I am in need of money.

Help?

Today, it looks like you will finally be able to close the door on past issues at work or school. That water is finally going to be under the bridge and part of your memories. Try not to dwell on things that have gone before -- it's not healthy, and it's just not any fun! Right now you need to set your sights on a new fun adventure. Start planning your next vacation, your next date, or just your next nap! It's time to schedule something to look forward to, because your future is bright.

Will I be the one who doesn't succumb wholly to love?

Have a nice week ahead.

Cried again while watching the show yesterday. It's by far the most touching "end-of-the-world" movie. Other than that, spent my Sunday in the beszxszxt manner ever. ;)

Fallen fallen fallen!

Might be moving to LiveJournal. Buttt, the commenting/tagging system over there ain't as active. Anyways, life has been okay. Thanks for wondering ;)

Finally told sis that I wouldn't be joining her, and thank God, she didn't throw a fit. In fact! She's applying for leave so that she can come over to see me instead. Sometimes it feels good to see how much others would do just to please you. Love you Kakak! *sends wet kisses your way*

Apart from that,
mundane mundane mundane Saturday.

Enjoy your weekends babies. ♥