Are you afraid to go too deep, in a new relationship? This person seems like a wonderful addition to your life, but there is something about them that either confuses you or concerns you. Take some time, today, to think more about this -- is it a legitimate fear, or are you projecting some of your own stuff onto them? The conclusion might surprise you. Sometimes, new people enter our lives to make us question ourselves, not just to enjoy ourselves.

So darn true, don't you think? Especially the last part. Sad, but true. Gah! Nonetheless, although I had a really screwed up day yesterday, I'm a much happier person today. Finally got to spend time with the family, even if it was only a redundant trip to Geylang and dinner. I am glad I'm finally getting closer to my sister in law. And I no longer find her irritating and pesky. Hahaha I'm not mean, I take a longer time to adapt.

Oh yes! Matt Bindhi was telling me that he thinks I'm a boy trapped in a girl's body. I didn't actually know how to react to that. Cs no one has said that to me before. I'm guessing he thinks that cs I punch him all the time. Hahahaha don't blame me, you asked for it. Seriously if boys treat girls the way they treat their friends, no room is left for subtleness. And unlike other girls who just sit & cry when someone talks them down, I do what I have to do. I have an elder brother who is rough to me all the time. Sorry but I grew up learning how to defend myself. Seriously if you were a boy, and you had a girl friend, would you want her to be poised and gentle and scared of getting herself dirty. Or would you want her to know about soccer, laugh out loud and have fun?

I will so go for the latter.

Why be all gentle when the people around you are definitely the opposite of that. Not like they'll be gentle WITH you. I like to hang out with people and be of an equal standard. Not to obstruct them and have them constantly think about ways and things to do so that I won't break my arm or get dirt on my frilly dress. Pfft, screw it. Anyhoo, as much of a boy I may seem to most of you, I'm sorry you think so. Cs this is what makes me Nurul Natasha Bte Rudy Shahril. ;)

Also Matt told me that many people think my stare is scary. I stare at you because you are noisy, irritating or freaky. If you were at a movie, and someone went on talking and laughing, not even trying to whisper behind you, you'd hate it correct? Exactly why I stare most of the time.

I'm going for High School Musical on Ice tomorrow with my cousin and her son. I think it'll be fun after this whole week of pure frustration and fretting. And then my weekends will be spent in JB with cousins from Sg and Msia. I am sexcited. Talk to you bananas soon. Muah!