I had alot to say. I guess the anxiety died off. Nonetheless, a Tuesday which caused my insides to churn slightly, shook my emotive enzymes and made me fall into deep thought for a good few hours. It's unbelievable how a few words can totally change your perception on life. Nothing is easy, you either make it or break it. If you fall, brush yourself off and try again. Because no hand will always be reaching out for you, your whole life. As harsh as it is, it's a bloody fact. And seriously, you can trust no one.

As much as the saying, "birds of a feather flock together" spells truth, no one person can be 100% similar. Every single one of our differences adds up spice/nothing nice. Can't seem to play along?

You're out.

I guess all the sentences I've constructed over the last few minutes which are now sitting on the edge of my membrane, has got to do with emotions. No, it is not that time of the month. And no, I am not suffering from hormonal imbalance. I'm just - growing up.

You might not understand where I'm going with this, but that is just because you have not heard what I have. It's a dog-eat-dog world out there. Suck it in or be sucked in; you choose.

On a much much yay finally I feel so lucky note, I got a pair of new shoes. Running shoes. Thanks to my cousin. Yes, the one who I was very angry with last year. The one who kept running me down and the one who made me cry for a straight 2 days. With every bitter experience, comes a sugary surprise. Okay I totally made that up. Whatever it is, it always works for me.

And to my dearest Malay people, please please don't further embarrass yourself? You do NOT want to hear what the others think about you. And I'm saying this as a malay, an indian, and a friend.

I love you all.