(I look like an Albino in the picture above.) Anyways, sis has finally gotten her contract. And she's leaving, FOR GOOD, this Saturday. How abrupt can it get? Just when everything was finally falling into place. But, like I've said, I am so used to having to re-adapt every once in a while. First it was sister becoming a flight attendant whose base was in Bahrain, then my brother who got married and moved out, then my sister came back (which was heavenly), and now she's leaving again.

I guess I'll really stick to my principle of: Short-lived Happiness.

Nonetheless, I am glad that everyone is actually moving forward - sucessing. I'm hoping I'll be in those shoes soon enough. Am thinking of taking my basic theory next week. Hahahaha. 2 weeks study-break coming up. SHIOKADODADEY!

As for now, I guess all I want to do is spend time with my sister. So, sorry if I've made anyone feel neglected or less special than you already are. I love you babies still ♥

Ps: Listen to this song.

I can't believe it, you're a dream comin' true. I can't believe how I have fallen for you. And I was not looking, was content to remain. And it's erotic to be back in the game ♥

Friday was surprisingly good. I had an econs test on Friday and I think I did alright. Thank you Peggy Yeo. Oh but she actually skipped me. She did not even leave a space for me. It's fine, cs in the end I got to pick my own seat - beside Shobana. Totally unplanned. Cool or what! Half the class left less than 30mins through the test. I left like 45mins after I think. I am very very glad that I was able to submit the paper with a sense of utmost accomplishment :D

Gym-med after that - with Charlie & Ruebs. I actually skipped APM. Very unlikely of me, correct? Pfft. I didn't think it was worth it though. Left school, met up with Kakak. Waited and waited and waited for bestfriend to come, and off we went to Triple8. I think walking to Triple8 made me perspire more than the gymming session. I guess I'll just have to go for liposuction if I want immediate results. Anyone interested? Hehehehe macam ada duit je aku ni. I think I'll just eat grass from now on in. Sent bestfriend to Triple8, waited for Dina to come and I left. We will meet again after your exams, no worrrrrrrries. Hee.

Walked home alone, with David Cook singing in my ears. Hahahaha! Okay my bag was heavy. My back was dead by the time I reached home. Mum didn't even have the heart to nag at me for not calling her that afternoon (I forgot, really sorry) when she saw me all hunched walking into the house. Drama mama betul. I loved every bit of my Friday. Thanks to Peggy Yeo, Charlie lovely, Bestfriend, Kakak, and Ali Babya! ♥

For the record,
I AM NOT CRAZILY IN LOVE.

It's just that certain things that certain people say really really put a huge smile on my face. And since it makes me happy, I tend to blog about it. Don't go around saying things like I'm delusional or full of it. If I was any of the above, I'd have already started blogging about how I had a date with Shah Rukh Khan yesterday. Pffffft. Quit being so bloody presumptuous about every single thing. If you want to know so much about what's been going on then I'd rather you ask me personally :} I'm just saying you know. Cs I don't want my name to be all over the place as though I murdered someone. No pun intended, really.

(I'm off to buy peppermint milk tea, zzzoooom)

Anyways, went back kampung on Saturday. Brother followed. Hehehehe. I love it when he's around. Because for sure my stomach will ache from laughing so much. We were actually supposed to just go there to visit my uncle, but we ended up staying over. But since brother was around, we didn't sleep the whole time. Cousin came along too, so we had a blast. No, no pictures. I know! Sucha waste. But nevermind, I really had alot alot of fun. That's why no matter what happens - FAMILY COMES FIRST. No matter how much your friends make you laugh, smile. No matter how much your boyfriend kisses you and tells you how much he loves you. No matter how much your friends would bother spending on your bday present. Your family members will be there till the end. Like, literally.

I need to install Microsoft Office, Adobe & Arcsoft in my lappy mansxsz. Can't seem to edit my pictures. Tsk. I think this post was long enough. And for no absolute reason. Love you babies!

(8:47 PM) cuz I is on fire: eh azza you know what! hahaha. tadi i was walking home, then i saw this apek bawah block ah. then he only had 1 tooth okay! but he was korek-ing gigi.
(8:47 PM) cuz I is on fire: HAHAHAH!
(8:47 PM) cuz I is on fire: like what could get stuck sia? a grain of rice?
(8:47 PM) cuz I is on fire: walao. i laughed all the way home k, alone.
(8:48 PM) Azza Izana.: HAHAHAHAHAHA
(8:48 PM) Azza Izana.: AND IM LAUGHING OUT LOUD NOW
(8:48 PM) Azza Izana.: klakar nyeeee natz!
(8:48 PM) Azza Izana.: i can imagine an ahpek ok!
(8:48 PM) Azza Izana.: hahaha
(8:48 PM) cuz I is on fire: hahahaha i know! i found it very cute lah. hahahahaha gigi satu nak action pakai toothpick. kita gigi besi tak gentar.
(8:48 PM) cuz I is on fire: AHAHAHAHA SORRY.
(8:48 PM) cuz I is on fire: dah lama never speak malay.
(8:50 PM) Azza Izana.: HAHAHAHAHAH
(8:50 PM) Azza Izana.: natzzzzzzzzzzz klakar nye kamu!
(8:50 PM) Azza Izana.: seriouss
(8:50 PM) Azza Izana.: hahah
(8:54 PM) cuz I is on fire: hahaha. then he stare stare. you know mcm gangster ada toothpick in the mouth. apa da tu apek.
(8:54 PM) cuz I is on fire: you doing hmwk eh?
(8:55 PM) Azza Izana.: hahahahahhaaha
(8:55 PM) Azza Izana.: yeps.
(8:55 PM) Azza Izana.: natz u so funny lah!

Seriously you know. No exaggeration on my part. Hahahaha. Ciao babies!

It is happening again ): The week is coming to an end. And I've yet caught up with anyone of my girlfriends. Like seriously, what's wrrrrrrong man. I miss too many people to be able to get through a full day in school in 1 single mood. I either start off quiet and end up being all chirpy or the complete turn around. Tsk.

I need to shed manymany kilos lah, really. Gymming soon. Right, Charlie? I'll keep motivating ourselves okay. Hahahaha. Make sure you keep reading. Run, stretch, run, stretch. Only after this will we be able to go for seafood @ JB. Hehehehehe I am excited okay! No thanks to you.

(Shit, I've got ugly fingers)

To those who have already read what was initially here, lucky you. Secrecy would be best. Thanks bye. Hahahaha.

FRY YOURSELVES BANANAS!

Friendster Horoscope for April 22, 2008
Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22)

If you go out into the world today, put on your explorer's hat. Try to see everything as if it were a mysterious land. There are places you pass by every day that you've never really taken a hard look at before, so keep an eye out. Examine the world around you a bit more closely. Take a different route to work or school, and see what the scenery looks like. There's no need to be in a hurry every day, is there? Slow down. Get out of the rat race. The world is a wonderful place -- you just have to open your eyes.

No need to rush everyday? Yeah, I kinda agree. I don't understand why I CHOOSE to leave late and then get to school just in time. Maybe I shall just continue rushing this week. It's been a really busy weekened, and now the time bomb just wouldn't stop ticking. In fact, each tick gets louder and louder. Nerve wrecking much? You don't know what's coming next. And then BAM BAM BOOM. You walk right into it. Bad day today. Let me briefly tell you why (although it is now 2.58am)

1) Ruebs got me really worked up during econs. Thanksxzsx ah brother -.-" Heh.

2) My phone died on me. Like, what are the odds of that happening to me man?! Tsktsk.

3) There was a girl who said I was short, when she was barely 1cm above me. *rolls eyes* Okay not like I don't know I'm short. It's just because I was not in the best of moods, I didn't even know her that well, and she just had to freaking provoke me. Walao.

4) I'm getting jelak with someone's manja-manja behaviour

5) I walked home and ended up sweating (yes, sweating) like a hog

6) I couldn't talk to someone who'd obviously be able to make me smile

7) I was locked out of the house

8) I had to travel all the way back to Marsiling and go to Sheng Siong, Segala Untuk Kamu

9) It's that time of the month

10) I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT PRONTO

That's pretty much it. Point no. 3 made me realllly angry. Like, I grew okay. I grew vertically, ALOT. Hmph! I shall now, sleep. For I must be healthy and grow that 1 cm she made such a big deal of. Nights all ♥

It's 1.15am, it's officially a monday. And here I am, sitting on my bed, with the fan making as much noise possible, with the sound of a car alarm which just ended 3 seconds ago still ringing in my head, with my butt aching, with my gastric acting up, with my spongebob cushion under my princess (i named my lappy princess, btw), with my thumbdrive around my neck - I am feeling artistic. Big time.

I just completed my assignment which is due on Tuesday. I deserve a break. I think what I did for the AD wasn't my best. I shall go to sleep later on making sure I think hard about what I can do to improve it. Quite alot happened last week, I just can't remember what & when exactly. Either ways, I was no longer at the 2 ends of the emotive continuum all at the same time. That feeling was just insane, indescribable definitely.

I have been spending so much time with my sister. I guess it's because it has finally dawned on me that she's leaving me, again. Probably just muccccccch longer this time round. We are so alike now. Hahaha! Can't stop completing each other's sentences & reading one another's minds. Very frustrating when it's too frequent. But the sense of contentment and familiarity between us grows everytime it happens. Yes, I love my sister very very very much. She is the only one who I can tell everything and anything to. Even when I don't know what colour to choose. I hate having to adjust myself to not having her around. I will feel very dicomfited & tongue-tied when she leaves a few weeks from now. I don't think she'll read this, but kakak, if you are. WHOEVER SAID YOU COULD USE MY LAPPY?! Oh and also, if you are reading this. I love you and remember, save me a room! Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmuah ♥

So much for feeling artsy -.- Now I'm feeling sleepy. Lol. Nights all!

(I kinda like this picture.) Anyways, a total blunder of emotions yesterday. I am hoping my gastric ulcers will go away before the May holidays. Tsk. Dear God, please bring me through this phase. And dear readers, please pray for my safety & well-being. I'm still having a busy busy week. Due dates for assignments are nearing. And, if 0844A is unlucky, we'll be having an Econs test tomorrow.

Elasticity, here I come!

raily: fuyo nat, your nose is very mancung! and indian blood! just what i fetish for if you were a guy. sadly, no ):
Nat: hahahah no. only when it's being viewed from the side. otherwise, it looks like a juicy mushroom. grr.

zafirah: i saw jidddd! eh today his bday. haha. anyway, i think i know the guy in blue. i think he attended the 1st starbucks training class with me. hoho. and i love potatoes too! boiled, mashed, fried. :D
Nat: YES! i think we're gna have a belated something something for him sometime next week. haha. potatoes are evil, but delicious. freaking tragic.

yana: NAT! ???
Nat: YES YANA, YES?! Hehe.

sha: NAT!!!! I HAVE A FREN WHO IS LIKE YOU!! LITERALLY LIKE YOU!! ahha.the character and all.SOUND GD RITE??!!
Nat: Walao, not again! Hahaha. I have a clone @ IJC. And now at NP? Do I look so typical ):

RBN: Can I Can I Join Yo List Too....???? Ha Ha Ha, But Of Course I Won't Let U Kill ME!!! Ha Ha Ha Cheer Up Lah Babe!!! =)
Nat: *does the tribal dance*

Charlie: NATNAT ill be ur badminton partnet, i can BAD for nuts
Nat: You working right charchar? /: How to play!

NATJ: awww! natJ low self-esteem?!?! you crazy women! haaha
Nat: OH MAN THERE'S AN IMPOSTER! WHO ARE YOU NATJ. LiJ, I'm hoping this is you okay. Hahahaha. And yes, I have low self-esteem D:

To You:

I don't think you will read this, but in the instance that you do - I need you to dig deep & think about what I have got to say. This whole situation is beautiful, no doubt. But how real is it? It was never confirmed nor conformed. I don't blame it on you though, because it is still too early to judge. However, the things you do too, are never deep-rooted. I seriously don't think that I'm taking things too seriously. But neither am I going to allow myself to take things too lightly either. What you say, and what you do are worlds apart. And, as much as I want to plant every ounce of belief within me, in you, I can't. I simply can't, because nothing is set. I don't even know if your mind is made up. I just need a signal. Show me something, tell me something. Anything to prevent a futile mission. What I tell you, and what you tell me. I don't feel that we're at the same degree of ardency.

Nonetheless, I have not abused the 4letter word (the one tt starts with an L) during this whole time. I am very proud of myself for that. Anyways, the picture above. I look strange. I wonder why my lips are always red (I swear I don't use lipstick) and why I always look so bloody flustered.

A very very very busy week ahead ):

Kisses to all ♥

This will be a very random entry (numbered NOT according to importance)

1) I think I'm suffering from low self-esteem
2) I need to put aside more time for school assignments
3) I cannot believe my sister's leaving in 2weeks
4) I need a job
5) I miss having bestfriend around ):
6) I need a fixed badminton partner (fixed meaning i'll kill you if you ever cancel on me)
7) I cannot stop listening to Bella Luna, no thanks to someone
8) I have got to get my emotions straight & decide what is it I wna do
9) I need to fold clothes
10) My handphone is being an arse
11) I need money
12) My classmates are fun fun people
13) I think Ive been hanging out with smokers too much that my throat hurts now
14) I want to play soccer, baddddddddd
15) I want to lose weight badddddddddd
16) I must spend enough time with sister
17) I'm just a singer, you're the world
18) I want I want I want I want to be in the same school as Siti Aishah Lubis ♥

Too many things going on.

Sister's leaving me, again.

My other half is leaving me.

:(

I think I need to get a lap top. And I think I need to lose weight. Eat less, drink more. But what to do! I love to eat ): Hahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. I love potatoes. (carbs) I could hardly pay attention in class today. I was half asleep okay. I should stop staying up till late and console myself with the lamest excuses.

Ps: I don't know why the last picture is so small & blurred. Wasted, i look thin in the pic!

I’m just a singer you’re the world. All I can bring you is a language of a lover. Bella Luna my bella luna. How you swoon me like no other ♥

I am very happy that I have allowed my insides to settle. There was a sudden surge of emotions last week & I guess that was what made me feel so darn sick. I felt like I was bombarded with all types of scenarios which were very expressively demanding. I did not feel physically sick, I just felt as though I was drained. Both emotionally & mentally. Nonetheless, I've realised over the weekends that I am very blessed. Blessed - but not thankful enough. I complain over the slightest issues and whine at the smallest blunders. I shall try to no longer be a baby about everything.

(I want to eat pizza so badly. Hawaiian especially. Omg. Zzzzzyum.)

Well, here are the pictures from the 3day bday bash:

I cannot believe that we did so much for a child who was turning 1 year old. I guess as we grow older, everyone starts to care less as well. Haha. The Ugly Truth. Nevertheless, OLD IS GOLD. I can't believe I just said that, but it's true. School was horribly boring today. Absolute Monday Blues attack. Everyone was affected okay. Pfft. I hate afternoon classes. Makes me feel so sticky, sleepy & veryvery lazy. The next paragraph is actually very unnecessary & tremendously emotive. So, you could just stop reading here.

After the 3 days I spent with my family members. I realised that besides oxygen, food & water, family is pretty much all that I need. They are the only ones who will be willing to do anything, and I mean anything for you. They will be the ones who tell you to shut up if they think you're too noisy. Their comments will mean to the most to you. Their actions will affect you most. They will say, "Omg. That looks ugly on you. Go change!" if you wear something really ridiculous. They will be the ones who continuously cook for you, but will comment on you if you gain weight. Hahahaha. Well, all that and more. This is why, I love my family. Both the Tulus & Rudy Family ♥

I'm back. I know I owe many people a long long entry. Sorry, been kinda preoccupied. Here goes:

Friday, April 4th
Hung out in the canteen for close to 2 hours with a whole bunch of 0844A people. Charmaine, Felicia, Nadiah, Syed, Kelv, Deanna, Sophia, Nas, Jid/Jeet, Dominic, Rueban, Geraint. Obviously, we were gossiping, about so many things. And it has only been less than 2 months. Tsktsk. We are such Mass-Commers. Anyways, decided to make a move and go to LJS for our lunch. When in actual fact, our canteen sells cheap food. Pfft. Walked all the way to Commonwealth from school under the scorching Sun. Bursting out with guffaws of laughter every now & then. After lunch and everything, decided to do some photo-taking. Hahahaha. The most exciting part of the day, I must say. Charlie has not uploading the pictures, but that's alright. I shall let ya'll see it when she does. Went off, bid our goodbyes to Charlie (Charlie is Charmaine by the way) cs she was taking a different train. Made our way to Jurong East. Bid our goodbyes to different people now. Haha. Took the train towards Woodlands with Sophia, Nadiah, Jid & Nas. I am so very glad that Sophia & I have the same perception towards this 1 person. Hahaaaaaa. I thought I was being mean and just refused to understand this person. But no! Many people share the same perception afterall :D

I was actually rushing to get back to Woodlands cs I was going to meet Yue J at IJC. Sat @ the canteen. Talked talked talked. Met Atika, Syikin, Dina, Farah. Made 3 new friends and I got to meet bestfriend! ♥ Yayyyyyyyy. After so long. Huahua. Thanks to Yue J for actually bothering to meet up just cs of one long long story. Haha!! Rushed home, packed my bag for niece's chalet. And offfffffffff I went. Without dinner ):

Ps: Thank you to all who made my Friday a good one. Love you guys! Xoxo.

Saturday, 5th April
Stayed up all the way till 5am. Decorating & cleaning the bungalow at Aloha Resorts I think. Made sure the room I was sleeping in was the cleanest. Lol. I have pictures and I will upload them all after this. Slept at 5, woke up at 6.30 for subuh. Slept again & woke up at 8.30am. I swear I was suffering from a major headache. But I was the overall in charge so yes, I HAD TO BE STRONG FOR THE PEOPLE. Okay shattap. The party started at 230pm. And everything was done by then. I rock lah, really. The party went on all the way till midnight. And we're talking about a party for a girl who just turned ONE okay. A one year old. Omg.

I will upload the pictures both from Friday & Saturday as soon as I manage to get all of them. Ciao!

Replies.

atika: helloo nat!! lol... c u soon! tc (:
Nat: HELLO! Yayyyyyyy, soon. Hahaha, nice meeting you on Friday.

natismyno.1idola!: baby konon. nak step cute jek ni syu
Nat: Razif. Hahaahha i still dont know why i am your idola. eh syu is cute okay. don't disturb.

LiJ:natJ!you look soooo adorable in your braces! :)
Nat: AWHH. Hahaha so sweet. Thank you LiJ.

SYU ^-^: baby.
Nat: Yes baby? :P

fathin: erm nat?update?heh heh heh.cheeky2 ok diam
Nat: Updated darling.

jannah: naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaattttttttttttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!
Nat: Hahahaha. JANNAH!

HUIYA: YO! link me up alright? ^^ see ya ard. xD
Nat: WILL DO :D

zafirah: hi nat lachey (leceh). :D
Nat: Zaf Timonnnnnns (timun) :}

JUDITH: ZOMG NAT YOU SWEETTT THING. I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEE YOU!!!! (:
Nat: Hahahaha. Hope you had a great seventeenth. Love you tooo! ♥

yana: nat.
Nat: yes love?

An Irritable Tuesday

I'm cranky
I'm unfriendly
I'm temperamental
I'm half depressed
I'm weak

Sadly, this is what happens when I've been overwhelmingly happy for 3 consecutive days or more. I don't know why it works that way, it just does. Pfft. And the person I think I need most is busy with a life of his/her own. I feel like cancelling all of my plans for this week (excluding school) and just rot at home.

With a bottle of green tea, and a bag of chips
She hopes to turn happy, and not flip

Did that rhyme? Okay whatever. I hate this. I feel so, qweyshxujismxta!

First of all,Happy Happy Happy 17th Birthday to Dearest Judith Lim aka Joot aka Diffy :D I know we are not ascloseasthis, however, I think by being a super avid reader of your blog, I've actually gotten to know you more. Hahaha -.- Thank you for the TicTacToe and UNO sessions on MSN, the noisy waiting session during the Night Safari & the "hellobye" moments outside the NE Library. I've always looked up to you (no, i have never told you this) because you are witty, funny & well, you literally do what you want to & when you want to. Stay the strong person that you've always been. Cs no one has the right or can you hold down. Love ya! ♥

Ps: I am not stalking you. I merely borrowed the above picture from yr friendster gallery. Heh!

Update more later.