Fundamentals of Marketing

Introduction to Marketing

Class Assesment

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(first in class)

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
I happy. You happy?

I love love love LR-E218. My favourite-st place in the campus. Hahahaha. But we have to walk like 10km just to get to the ladies -.-" Yes, mass comm encourages amplification. Why? *rolls eyes* The rest of the post will be out of pure anxiety cs I'm still on cloud 9 over the results. Lol. Get over it? Neverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Anyways! There's a reallllllly bizzare girl in 0844A. She was fine the first few days. But then she just grows weirder & weirder by each hour or something. No kidding. She used to have people sitting beside her, but not anymore. Her idiosyncratic self shows very unexpectedly. She'll just run to the door in the middle of lectures, crash into the door, feel for the knob and slam the door after her. And then, she'll appear suddenly at the back of the classroom. This time, as silently as a mouse. Sometimes, she'll turn on her laptop and watch movies. Yes, in the middle of lectures. If we're lucky, she'll plug in her earphones. Oh and. I noticed something really disturbing during Comm Skills just now. She wrapped her head with her shawl, lay her head on the table & giggled continuously. What's her problem? I try to not entertain this thought. But sometimes, I think she's..........................................

A GHOST!

Okay lah. She's just really weird.

Dad did something really random this morning. Know how the the lady behind the speaker speaks to the people on the MRT every few minutes? Ya. There was an announcement on how we should inform their staff if we saw anyone/anyting suspicious. Like every morning, dad was reading his book & I was half asleep with Bon Jovi in my ears singing to me. Hahahahahaha what. Okay so he heard it and placed his hand on my shoulder. I looked at him and he said, "Are you suspicious looking? *grabs my face & starts analysing* Hm, no. Good." HAHAHAHAHAHA.
How random is that lah? All I could say was this, "Tsk! Pagi-pagi nak buat lawak. Jangan k thanks" Action right, I know. I'm not a morning person. LOL. Welcome to my life.

Last one. I found out something horrifying. Green Tea. The one that tastes very heavenly. The one that quenches your thirst even if you weren't thirsty. The one that tastes like it's only made up of rrrrrrreally healthy leaves. (hahaha) Well, it makes you FAT. FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT. Cs it contains about 15g of carbohydrate. It's as good as eating rice & potatoes okay. TSK. It'll make you fat like this:

LOOK AT THAT CHIN. SHOOT. I SHOULD BE ARRESTED FOR THIS LAH.

Shobana, Felicia, Diana, Yati, Charmaine, Gabriel, Y(J)essica, Dimmy, Kelvin, Nicole, Samantha Elliana, Ghurga, Masleena, Ruben, Brinda, Huda, Ian, Dominic, Raj, Saiful.

The people who I bother saying "Hello" or "Morning" to everyday :) Except a few, cs they're my bloody group members. Sabo me again lah! Irritating. Okay. There are definitely a few more. But, they're pretty much anti-social. Boooooooooooooring. (Oh ya, my current fav is Raj ♥) Anyways! Taking the train to school isn't so bad afterall. Takes a longer time, but who cares. I've not bumped into anyone I know just yet. Must meet the right timing I suppose.

Workload: increasing
Things to memorise: increasing
Requirement for fab English: increasing like there's no tomorrow
No. of friends: increasing
Interest in studies: increasing
Temp of air-con in LTs: decreasing >:(
Clothes to wear to school: decreasing
Tests coming up: increasing

Masleena says that MassComm-ers are needed in Dubai. Huahuaha. Are you thinking what I'm thinking? Kakakkkkkkkk, I wna follow :) Jangan macam faham k thanks.

Changing colour of braces tomorrow! Yay.

A few things happened today that made me want to dig my thighs/slap somebody.

1) I woke up this morning only to realise a large number of bites all over my body. They were red, swollen & OMG super itchy. I felt like crying because it was everywhere okay! And when I took my shower, I discovered even more of them ): Shit. Ant Attack. Never never never allow anyone to eat chips on your bed, trust me. I was so angry that even when I saw an ant, I actually gave it a stare. Hahahhahahahahaha. What, at least I didn't kill it.

2) Dad woke up late! Meaning, we were going to be stuck in the usual morning jam. Just that it was gna take extra long cs we started later. I hate traffic jams big time. So there I was, in the car, for 45minutes, with the air con in my face. I felt that it'd lessen the itching sensation. It's all in the mind so - I felt better. And thankfully, Glenn Ong managed to make me smile :) Thanks.

3) It was presentation day today. Presentation on Communication Models. Mr Siregar was early. And surprisingly, so was I. I thought I was gna be late. Okay, so the deal we (group members & I) made last Thursday was this: Whoever comes last/latest on Monday (today) will do the presentation. We all agreed. All of us nodded like our heads were gna pop off or something. I did my work. I printed out the alternative model and made notes. I provided them with answers. But noooooo, just like I expected, they pushed it to me. A fat overaged man/boy, an IndoChinese girl, a freaking smelly bad breathed boy & a malay mat who was trying too hard went against me ): Oh yes. I had a bite on my left cheekbone. CHEEKBONE KNOW. Like my cheekbone needed to be any bigger. I was in no mood to present whatmore layan their nonsense. I felt like punching everyone of them. So fine, whatever. I rummaged through my bag with anger, took out notes which my life seemed to have depended on at that point of time and marched down to the stage. Grabbed the mic from Mr Siregar and said this - Goodmorning to all of you. First of all, I would like to extend my sincerest apology to all of you as obviously, I am not dressed for the occasion. (I was wearing Birks lah omg) I guess this is what you get yourself into when you have such responsible group members *stares at the whole row of useless idiots* Okay then I began. I'm glad everyone clapped after the presentation. Lol. I didn't even know what I was saying but Mr Siregar said "Good Job" so I figured I did alright. Went back to my seat, grabbed my bag and sat in a different row far away from those traitors. Grrrrrrr, my blood is still boiling. Angry know! Especially with that smelly boy. He was last to come ykno. I'm sure he was the one who decided that the whole lot of them go against me. Funny or whattttttttttt stinky Pete. Yes I'm being mean only cs you freaking deserve it. Hmph! Don't talk to me unless you get a bath.

Oh by the way, I had a dream. A dream that I wish came true in time to come. Huahuahuahua. Cheeky much? It happens what :) Goodbye all!

Ps: I'm glad you're no longer the first person who comes to my head when I wake up every morning.

I have people who don't give a shit about what's happening. I have people who won't respond no matter what is it I say. I have people who are too unreasonable to boot. I have people who keeps thinking no one cares. I have people who left and are never coming back. I have people who think I'm a snob (siao). I have people who are having a hard time catching up with "change". I have people who are a total pain in the neck. I have people who know how much I miss them yet act like an ass. I have people who are really selfish. I have a test tomorrow & I'm hoping that I won't screw up.

"friendship isn't being inseparable. it's being separated & knowing for sure that nth will change."

Shit. I need a friend k thanks D:

Not very busy.
Just pure lazy.
FTM test on Monday.

Takecare All ♥

Thursday

A short day today. Lecture was only 2 hours, and then I was free the rest of the day. Mr Siregar had something urgent to attend to and rushed off even before we could say "robust". Okay, inside joke. Anyways, went to the library after that with Shobananana & Felicia JieJie. I felt it was ultra productive. I found my favourite spot in the library, on the floor. Huahuahua, typical secondary student, I know.


Felicia & me began mugging, like we had a test tomorrow. Lol, kiasu but I like it. Shobana was in her own world, changing her themes on her phone. Hahahahaha. The most ignorant person ever lah, and she knows it :) It's cool. I think she just doesn't want to be one out of the millions categorised under "The Faceless Majority". Heh, own theory. No parsimony involved though.


She began taking pictures of me, talking to myself. So close your eyes for the next 30secs.

Very irritating faces, I know. Shobana insists that the white scarf made me look like a nerd, so she took it off and placed it around my neck (the only reason I'm typing this is cs she claims she's gna read it and if I don't actually type all of this down, she will irritate the hell out of me on Monday) Hence, the white object around my neck. Anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyys. I'm bored. No lectures tomorrow. I'm supposed to be studying, but due to the complexity of humanity - I am procrastinating :)

Oh ya, Nurhaszirah Haszahar, I'll always always be here for you okay. I know how much it hurts to have your loved ones destroy your insides like that. Your innards feel like exploding. I just hope no ones runs you down like that again. You're fine the way you are, you're smart, you're one in a million. So love the way you are. You're like that for a reason. Love ya! ♥

Okay finishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Goodnight semua ^^

Ah dah start ah ni. Seriously, I get all dramatic & emotional at night. What the heck sia? Get a grip of your emotions lah natasha. I'm getting very frustrated at myself. Just move on ah? What the hell is holding you backkkkkkk? Oh my God. Not like anyone cares if you're unhappy. You only have yourself to depend on.

GET UP & MOVE ALONG ALREADY!

I am a trembling mess from hip to knee. There's a terrible heat, a looseness in my innards that makes me want to dig my fists between my thighs. It is a confusing feeling - somewhere between diarrhoea and utter despair.

Diarrhoea & Despair.
A whirlpool of emotions, much?
You bet.

I don't know where this is coming from. Others have it worse than me, yet they're able to get up, brush themselves off & move on. Why can't I do that? Why must I be someone who broods over it & go on analysing when I know for sure that it's over & done with? Why am I the person who absorbs the experiences of others and go, "Wow, I wish my life was that way." Why can't I say that I'm grateful for whatever that has happened & mean it?

I suppose I just can't stop myself from giving myself feedback. I have got to stop thinking and building structures in my head. I have got to start speaking up, I have got to give myself a bloody break. I feel so alone.

Ps: Thank You Nurhaszirah Haszahar.

I want to be normal ):
I want to be like everyone else ):
I want to go to a poly/jc ):
I want to be able to compare my homework with my friends ):
I want to study with people of my own age group ):
I don't want to be the youngest & being told to sit in front & being told to answer questions all the time ):
I don't want a big big campus, I want a SCHOOL ):

I'm feeling really miserable. My phone has been beeping off the hook since 7 in the morning. So many people texting me telling me where they're posted to. I'm very happy for all of you k! And those who are appealing for your desired course, InsyaAllah you'll get a second chance :) What's to happen, will happen. So don't brood over it.

Presentation on Communication Models this Thursday. I'm stuck with group members who won't co-operate. This stinks.

First Day.

Surprisingly smooth sailing. Thanks to Felicia & Shobana. Why are none of them my age? ): These two girls are like 25 & 19 lah -.-" Madness. But takpa, it's good being the youngest. Heh.

Class Test coming up, insane eh? Fundamentals of Marketing some more.
Die.

Muggggggggggging now, takecare.

Not having a "verified" diary to pen down my thoughts or going ons each day for a full sixteen years is prolly the most regrettable mistake ever. I clearly knew that 16 years would not be thrown back to me as & when I want it. I suppose I never really knew the meaning of TIME then.

16 years is a whole lot of time to have done a whole load of shit or to have made the best out of every moment. Sadly, I am not going for the latter this time. I have come to a point of realisation where I find myself totally vacant. I have realised that in these 16 years, I have not done something so very great that changed my life. Yes, I could have scored a few As here & there. Yes, I could have made my parents so angry that they were ready to kill me, perhaps? Yes, I could have made many friends/enemies. But none of that changed my life, not even once. I am not ashamed to say that I have told many lies within these 16 years. And neither am I ashamed to say that I have done many things I should have never even allowed myself to think about. But, let's just say that there is always a first to everything. People might think that their number of first(s) complete who they are inside. I don't believe in that. It does not matter what you do. As long as you know why you do it, I guess that suffices. Up till now, I wonder why people would bother endangering their own lives just to impress others. Does the hierarchy system in the society these days matter so much? I am very sure that if I was to conduct a survey on who would slit their wrists for their idol, they willingly would do it. I am very sure that if I was to conduct a survey on who would be in the nude for a whole 24 hours just for 1million bucks, they would think maybe for a second or two, forget they had dignity and agreed. Why? Why to this extent?

I am very ashamed and saddened that through these 16 years, I have had to face such temptations, such squat measures. I am thoroughly reluctant in engaging myself in such a society. A society where nothing matters anymore. Not dignity, not face, not family, not grace. If I was told to eat crap for $30k (just a scenario), I'd say, "If I was born to eat crap for $30k, I'd be a really expensive toilet bowl instead." Isn't that just much more sensible. Why trade our brain for $30k? When you/us can put that brain of yours to good use and earn more than $30k? Seriously, why? Yes, the world is changing. Let it happen naturally. Why rush change? When change is being quickened, not everyone can accept it. And when not everyone can catch up, anyone will agree to eat crap for $30k. I am saying this again because this is very true.

I am awfully mortified & thwarted.

What in the world happened to those pageant queens who say, "world peace" all the time? Gah. 16 years, and this is what it becomes. Brava! *applauds*

Ps: Don't you dare question me like that. Who are you to behave like you're perfect? I don't need anymore salt okay thanks.

Lackluster, substandard & despondent

Yeap, all 3 at once. Insanity, I know. Scandalous, I must say, how people can be so good at turning tables. No, not turntablism. But, pushing blame. How does one get so good at doing that?

School's starting on Monday, and Hell, I so totally cannot wait. First few mornings will be dreadful, I can tell. I hope Dad drives to his course venue. Huahua. Drop me off at Clementi and I'll be only 2/3 stops away. Cheap thrill lah. But it beats having to switch trains. I must make it in time for the shuttle bus before & after school. Hahahaha. Can save money :)

Oo ee oo ah ah ching chang wala wala bing bang.

Leaving for JB now, same thing tomorrow. Cousin's engagement. Pictures? Shall try. Cheh step ada orang nak tengok je -.-"

Okay, tag replies.

HASZ (: Yana, I agree with you. Kan nat? And no, its not photoshop. Who knows better about photoshop than me? v^^
Nat - Hahaha, idk? Not me lah I guess ):

yana: not nonsense lor. really pretty abe nak cakap ape. haha see! HASZ is wit me. and& i made ur dayyy YEAY! :) haha
Nat - hahahahaha yesyes, okay. of course you did! P:

HASZ AKA DOLLFXCE (: Hahahahaha Yey I love Nat, and I'm over th whole issue alrdy v^^ I think I'm doing so much better. But I needa tell you sth you know. Omfg, I couldn't believe it happen. Thinking abt it makes me sick.
Nat - Love ya tooooo. You told me ardy, kan? Hahahaha I don't rmb leh.

zuzazi: hu the HELL is that euu? IT shud be our leader for the tataika club siak.hahahah.and nat, it shud be SEDAP HINGGA MENJILAT KAKI ^yumyum^*dangles tounge* more impact lah.haha.im bored.did u bump into hantu gloria smalam?heh
Nat - HAHAHA good idea. Shall make it happen. Cheh. No, not yet. You?

No no no no baby, no no no no don't lie,

Cause No no no no, yeah you know know know know you gotta try

What 'cha gonna do when it all comes out

When I'm gonna see you, what 'cha all about

No no no no baby, no no no no don't lie

'Cause you know you know you know you know you know you gotta try

(Stop-st-stop-stop-st-stop-stop lyin'!)

Everything was going on fine, until I found out. Tsktsk. The lengths people would go to just to spite others. Aiyo, people nowadays. Jangan tipu anymore lah. Don't lie to a liar :) No, I'm not one. I just lie better than you do. Anywayyyys, I'm numb. If I've just misread this whole situation, then sorry. If not then I'm sorry also. Sorry for myself. I shan't jump to conclusions. I shall just swallow this whole. Don't care already lah. What's to happen will happen & it happened. Boo to me, yay to you. Yes, happy? Okay bagus, bless your soul! ♥

Nat - 0
You - 1

Just finished solving P4 Maths problem sums. Hahahaha tergaruk-garuk for awhile. Why can't they just use algebra. Why must draw table lah model lah. Nonsense! Teach algebra in P1 lah. After all we will be learning just that in secondary school what. Grrrrrrr. This paragraph is so filled with lahs. I'm sleepy, it's 3.46am now. I want to meet Bestf A tmr, must! I want to complain. Hahahahaha what. Sometimes I wonder. Ni baru friends tau. If husband how agaknye eh. I complain to Bestf still or my mum? LOL. Randommmmmmmm. Okay, off to campus esok to get lecture notes. Exciting lo.

Zy ztw, Zorry Zu zuz zi zannot zollow zou zo zchool. Z'ill zry zhough. Zee za.

Goodnight.

When you try don't try to say you won't
Try to crawl into my head
When you cry cause it's all built up inside
Your tears already said, already said
You are the one
You'll never be alone again
You're more than in my head, you're more

Been listening to this song for about 10x each day. Very nice. Sedap hingga menjilat jari! Oh and, are my posts to wordy? Lol -.- I think so. But *inserts HG voice* whoooooooooooooooooo cares?

(5:31 PM) >>I JusT WanT Eu: cute lil shorty
(5:31 PM) >>I JusT WanT Eu: ahakz
(5:31 PM) 0844A!: yes im short. so whatttt!
(5:31 PM) >>I JusT WanT Eu: but cute wat when your height is short
(5:31 PM) >>I JusT WanT Eu: itz just like Lifes is short
(5:32 PM) 0844A!: HAHAHAHA GTA RUN BYE.

If you spell you as euu, then I suggest you don't comment on shortness. Hahahahahaha oh and, indirectly telling me that my life will be short as I am. Selamat Jalan semua.

Harapkan pagar, pagar makan padi

It's true what I told Ameera earlier today. Don't bother having so many friends. Because heck, friends come & go. I'm numb, numbbbbbbbbb to all this. Ha.

Irritating ah semue orang.

Tsk.

From my head to my heart ♥

I don't know what's wrong with iMeem. Is that how it's spelt? Okay anyways, it's happening again. I can't sleep ): Slept at ten just now, in the end. I woke up at 2.30am. Sheesh, what's wrong with me. This is depressing.

I've been going out alot lately. No, not for fun. Tsktsk, I'd never do that. Hahahaha right. Whatever it is, I need clothes. Lots & lots & lots of them. Ideas anyone? Oh and, I can't fit into any size k thanks. I got many what? Dollfxce (aka "you can call me haszriah you know") can answer this with her eyes closed. Sorry lah makcik. I love to type dollfxce. Mcm cool. Sikit ah sikit.

Oh yesyesyes. Too many people are feeling low, for whatever reason. Come on people, *claps hands 3x very loudly* if you ain't gonna love yourself, who else will? I won't. Hahahahaha joking. What, suddenly you can't take a joke? Pfffffft. Anyways, yeah. Stop running yourself down over & over & over again. What's the bloody point! It's not as though everytime you remind yourself you don't look good, you will magically look good. In fact, everytime you think you look ugly, you're asking for God to make you ugly (I've never known the right word to replace doa). If you were fine all this time, why the sudden change? Not looking good in your old clothes or not fitting in it as well could mean 2 things. Your clothes shrunk or you just mengade only want to buy new clothes. If none of these 2 things is the reason then omg, you have a huge problem. You have the "I think I must go on diet" virus. However, everytime one has this virus - it backfires. It's pure evil I tell you. It makes you go on a binge, making you go allllll fat. Especially when you go on a diet while you feel depressed. Don't just suddenly change your whole lifestyle a whole 360degrees in 1 night. You might just die of shock. No I am not the best person for this whole motivational-let's-get-back-on-your-feet thingy, but it's horrible to hear your dear ones hating themselves for how they look. That's just insane okay! I will not tolerate anymore nonsense. Love yourself, because I ain't loving you. Hmph.

(Okay lah, I will still love you all. In fact, I will love you much much much more if you just shut up, live your life & suck it up *hide tummy abit lah* and get back to your old usual life. Unless you're eating 6times a day, 3-4plates of whatever it is you're eating at one time. Then totally ignore my post. You need real help. Heheheheheh. Remeber eh, mind over matter. You control your imagination, you control your mind. So yes, that said, peace!)

Goodnight sayangs.

First & foremost,

Congratulations to Mum (no, not Ibu) for being promoted! I shall give you a surprise soon enough okay ^^ I'll always be here for you, just like how you've been there for me through thick & thin. And I will continue doa-ing the best for you. Whatever happens, be strong. You've always managed to pull through anyways. Love ya! ♥

Secondly,

I miss my best friend ): Having a schedule that never meet hers is irritating. Lol. And not ending up on the same path as her, is very disappointing. Grrrrr. Anyways! You still owe me car lifts & a trip to Maldives (was it Maldives? HAHA). For that, I will stay strong. Oh and, I'm serious ykno. I want to be the first to know, might anything happen. I cannot imagine myself hearing about sth happening to my bestfriend from a third party ): Unless it's your family member lah. Heh, love you! ♥

Thirdly,

Someone made my day today. Hahaha. No one other than, Yana Banana. Heheheh.

(3:47 PM) liyana ?:
tad u watch pursuit of ness?
(3:48 PM) 0844A!:
ya! the best show everrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
(3:48 PM) 0844A!:
have you watched stranger than fiction?
(3:48 PM) liyana ?:
NOOOO haven
(3:48 PM) liyana ?:
i wana WATCH
(3:49 PM) 0844A!:
stranger than fiction?
(3:49 PM) 0844A!:
haha.
(3:50 PM) liyana ?:
yaaa
(3:50 PM) liyana ?:
u watched aedy?
(3:50 PM) 0844A!:
best gila yknow.
(3:50 PM) 0844A!:
hahaha.
(3:50 PM) 0844A!:
i never watch before, but ytd i watch in the wee hours of the mrng.
(3:51 PM) 0844A!:
best gila! watch together ah!

(3:51 PM) 0844A!:
LOL. if not then i have.
(3:52 PM) liyana ?:
ok ahhhhhh
(3:52 PM) 0844A!:
hahaha. okay! one of these days you come to MDIS. then we watch. nakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk?
(3:52 PM) liyana ?:
haha
(3:52 PM) liyana ?:
OKAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
(3:53 PM) 0844A!:
then we balik together.
(3:53 PM) 0844A!:
hahahahah -.-"
(3:53 PM) liyana ?:
yes yes yessss

Okay, there was more to that conversation. But nono, secret. Hahaha okay nonsense. This time must happen okay Yana! Give you all for your exams then we can enjoy with "Stranger Than Fiction". A very good show I must say. Meeeeeet soon Yana Banana. Love ya! ♥

(I know I'm ending every point with a Love ya. It's on purpose k thanks)

Fourth,

I think I'm really having issues. Hahaha I can't sleep early anymore! I tried last night. Fell asleep at 9+ I suppose. But in the end, I woke up at 12.30 for whatever reason. Grrrr. And till around 6am, I couldn't sleep. So I took a bath, sorted out the notes and whatnots for school (semangat I know), got the books ready for tonight's lesson & I began digging through the TV cupboard to look for DVDs. Picked a few, Music & Lyrics, Stranger than Fiction, Pursuit of Happiness & The Break Up. I'm super thankful I picked stranger than fiction. Been a long while since I watched such a great movie :D:D That's why I don't mind watching it again. Anyways, I'm wondering why I can't sleep. I mean, I thought when one's tired it doesn't really matter the noise, place or temperature. Lol. I can't possibly have OSA right? (obstructive sleep apnea) I don't snore! So, it's not possible. Ala, see. Now I'm sleepy. Irritating D:

Fifth,

My stove is making strange noises. I've turned off the gas. But, what if there still is little gas left in the pipe. And then, due to the sparks, an explosion occurs. Scared sia. I've actually shut the kitchen door. Hahahaha like that'll help. Okay I hope Ibu & Daddy comes home soon.

Sixth,

Imma get ready for SINDA now. That was random I know, Bye people.

Once more, I've messed up the skin. Hahaha. No, I cannot stick with my old one. Yes, my hands are always itchy. Okay, that was unnecessary. Anyways, quite a number of things I want to blog about. *cracks knuckles like Zuzazi*

For starters, I've received my timetable! Huahua. Am I excited or not. Yes, tensed as well. But doesn't matter. I'll have to adapt as soon as possible. Besides, I won't spend the whole day in school, thankfully. Each lecture = 3 hours. Baikkkk, let's freeze in the LT. (cheh haven't start use acronyms ardy)

First 2 months,
Fundamentals of Marketing & Communication Skills

And then for another 2 months,
Media Studies & Basic Econs

Term Break - Which has already been taken up by Ibu & Daddy. Umrah Umrah! P:

Then from June to Sept,
Human & Mass Comm, Social Behavioural Studies, Dynamics of Mass Comm, Techniques of Professional Speaking & Writing (I have a feeling Imma need Mr Vik's help -.-")

Sept to Dec,
Journalism & News Broadcasting (looking forward to this one. then can become Cheryl Fox), Public Relations: Strategy & Effective Practice, Television & Radio Production (best!), Advertising: Strategy & Effective Practice.

I can smell the greatness of my routined life coming back. Huahuahua. I miss having everything planned out. I've had enough of being on my toes & always having to think about what I should/will do the next day. Very mentally exhausting. Right I think that was boring enough. But I'm still psyched okay. Been awhile since I've been all keyed up ^^

Was out the whole day today, with Ibu & Daddy. Dad went for his check-up which made us wait for a good 3 hours. Madness or what! I was bored to death, and that's when I began to irritate the hell out of Ibu.

Me: *takes out a sweet and passes it to mum*
Ibu: Ee, tak nak. I cannot eat too many sweets at once. My langit-langit later gatal.
Me: Alaaaaa, Ibu ni boring ah. You never entertain me one.
Ibu: Kurang asam punya anak.
Dad: What's happening?
Ibu: She says I'm not entertaining. She expects me to sing for her.
Me: Eh! When did I say that?
Ibu: I know... That's what you want to say actually.
Dad: *starts to sing a hindi song*
Me: Kan daddy dah start! Tsk Ibu ni.
Ibu: Tengok tu. Aku lagi kene.
Dad: Kuch kuch hota hai...*nudges mum expecting her to sing along*
Ibu: Ish, anak beranak sama. Nak pergi toilet lah! *walks away*
Me: Noooooooooooo, don't leave me. I follow!
Ibu: *rolls eyes*
Dad: *shrugs & continues to hum the song instead*

Do we know how to irritate her or whatttttt. That's why she never wants to sit in between us, ever! Lol. Actually, there are a few more things I wna talk about. But I've yawned for like 6454894x the past few minutes. Goodnight all! :B

I cannot wait for school, really. I don't know why. I mean, I'll have to start all over again. New friends, new environment, new toilet, new library, new canteen food, new vending machine, new bookshop, new life. Nerve wrecking, ay? But, for all that it's worth - I'm psyched!

My teeth hurt O:< (!!)

Nonetheless, since this is already a very random entry. Cousin just sent me pictures she took of me during aunt's birthday party last week. The email was titled, "you need new poses". Hahahahaha. She says I always look the same in pictures. Really meh? -.-" I seriously don't think so. Besides, she was the one who refused to take pictures with me. Grrrr. Oh and and and, she painted her room Sassy Pink too! Copycattttttttttttttttttttt ah. Imma send her a return email saying, "you need originality" HAHAHA. Yay! Oh and and and! She alwayyyyyys ends up drawing on me beatiful eyes with her eyeliner and removing my specs ): So sad. Okay tak lah, whatever it is. I love her to bits & pieces ♥

Seeeeee! Not all sama what. Okay, maybe the smiles. Excuse me lah. I'm using braces so ada hindrance can. But the room colour is so similar! Compare yok. Since I'm so free.

This was taken in MY room. Compare the colour, go! It looks exactly the same to me /:

Oh yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Today is Bhaiyya's ♥ birthday! Huahuahua. Such an old man lah you. I know we're no longer living in the same house & I'm sure you're thankful for that. I am too. Hehehehe. However, I do miss having you around at times. I miss having a brother aka big bully aka food bin aka trash thrower aka movie marathoner aka my inspiration to get insomnia. Hahaha. No, I'm not gna say it this time round.

(I love you Bhaiyya, heh)

Tag Replies:

farah(:: nat! blog mati eh?? hahaha. update laa. loveya :D
NAT - Hahahah. Not okay! You always come when I never update ):

yana: wei. knape eh? im here lor! ask me OUT ;)
NAT - Okay will! Bila school start okay. Then we meet on the way home. Huahuahua ^^

Haszirah ^^: Hiiii sayang! Im here. See, im here. Hehehehehe. Loveyou! <3
NAT - Helluu! Hahaha yes you are. Love you tooo! ♥

I want to meet so many people, soon! Bestf, Haszirah, Yana Banana, Farah, Amar! How? -.- We will all terserempak someday, Insya Allah.

Goodnight semue!

Okay. I can't help it. 2 things are rubbing me the wrong way.

1) I am very pissed with Suhaimee Bin Tawar. No, I don't care if you read this. I don't even think you will. Anyways, must I really teach you how to treat a girl? What the hell lah. Come on eh. You think my handphone number was chosen for auction or whattttttttttt. Grrrrr, super irritating you know! Random people texting/calling me & everytime I ask how they got my number, I hear your name. Are you playing, "How low can you go?" Cs if you are then *dingdingding* you've just won.

2) I hate it when no one's there for me. Okay, many people are "there" for me. But, there are different people I go to for different needs kan. And wow, 2 days in a row. Ignore me some more lah, ignore. Bloody irritating you know. Ahhhhhhhhh. I'm so very filled with exasperation that I have lost every sentence I put together in my head for this post.

Well done all of you, well done. Allowing my heart to beat at a faster more frequent rate & causing my smiles to decrease. *applauds*

One last thing, Happy Seventeenth Dina Malyana. You're so far the smartest person I've ever met. Hahahaha I know that was just not very birthday like, but yes. That's the most distinctive temperament about you ^^ Enjoy your birthday!

"you're more than in my head"

Too many things have been going on these past few days. Haven't been staying home enough. Hahaha. The sofa has not been heated (by my butt) for very long. And, I miss the smell of my room in the mornings. Hahahaha yes! There is a certain smell. Anyways, I won't bother typing out a whole chunk of dreary & needless information. I'll just upload some pictures.

From East Coast to Genting to 2 Indian Weddings (which doesn't allow cameras. idk why). I love CNY. They should have it what, every 3months? Huahuahua.

Okay I was super pissed (last picture). Parents made a deal to go for the wedding with brother & sis in law. But, as always, they were freaking late lah! Oh my God. My patience was running out at 140km/h. Lol. Amardeep was already with us, so he took that picture of me. While I was pouting & literally seeting with anger. And that outfit was an inbuilt sauna or that was what it felt like. Grrrrrr. I dislike having to wait. I dislike late-comers. Anyways, that's about all. Really CNY should happen more frequently. Huahua ^^ I like! ♥

Tag Replies:

Haszirah! ^^: I LOVE YOU LALALALA! hahahaha. update!!
Nat - I love you tooo love :) Updated!

HASZRIAH!: I love Nat too :( Kpochi mamachi. Your father dont change, does he? He looks th same man? Tanya dia apa rahsia kecantikkannya? Wtf roflmao.
Nat - Hahahahahahaha. What mama mama, uh? I love you also lah! :P Yeah, he's been that way for as long as i know -.-" He'll say this, "I eat tomatoes. Tomatoes are good for my skin *touches face*" Ah, that's his 'secret' or so he says. Pffffft.

raily: natttt :)
Nat - rai rai rai my cherry pie! P:

yana: hellllo! ask me out again leiii. :)
Nat - My Yana Banana! ♥ Heh heh. I scared lah. I'm afraid I'll cancel on you again ):

One last thing. It's Umirah's 17th today. I'm so angry with myself because I'm not able to reach her. No one in my measly few numbers on the contact list knows her number. Such horrible people. Tsk.

Yes, grumpy grumpy me O:<

Ps: Hate the skin? Me too. So shut up.

Was searching for pictures and I came across the one above. Hehehehe. I miss those times ): I miss my old house. 272 @ Yishun St 22 #05-611. Hahahaha! Yes, I still remember. I practically grew up in that house. Grrrr. Anyways! Did nothing today. Like, really nothing. Went to the library buttttttt, by the time I got there, the library was closing. Am I lucky or what!

Grabbed 2 books. Of which I regret borrowing cs it just makes me wna sleep. Tsk! Since the library was closing, I went up to Starbucks to read. And catch up with my inner self. Lol. I love being alone. (not all the time though) I had caffeine. I guess that's why I don't feel even a tad sleepy right now. Big mistake. I hope family goes out tmr. I have enough of homeliness within me. Oh yes yes yes! I'm in! I'm innnnnnnnnnnnn. Mass Comm here I come. 11 more days till school starts for me. Very excited. 0844A! Heh heh heh.

To Bestfriend A ♥ - I've so got your back. Fall if you must, I'll help you up. I always will. *inserts alicia keys' voice* No one no one no one speaks ill about my bestf ^^ Neverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Lighten up!

To Haszirah - Thank you. You made my Thursday. Huahuahuahua. You know what you said :) Love ya!

Ain't it funny how you think
You're gonna be OK
Till you remember things ain't never
Gonna be the same again
The same again
Ain't it crazy how you think
You've got your whole life planned
Just to find that it was never ever
In your hands
In your hands
Change

I was there for you through thick & thin. So why can't you do the same? I was there for you all the time, even at 3am. So why can't you do the same? I have never groaned or whined when you needed someone to talk to (which was pretty much all the time). So why can't you do the same? I did not leave you in the lurch when you were in trouble. So why can't you do the same?

I'm wondering how someone has the heart to watch someone whom they claim to love & care for drown in his/her own mistakes. This will not apply to me ONLY. I am sure that if you're doing this to me, you'd have done it to your other friends out there. Yes, call me a baby if you must. At least I have basic courtesy. Pfft.

And you call yourself a friend.
Shame on you!

Grrrrrrrrrrr. I'm literally seething with anger.

Anyways! That aside. It's 4.08am now and I have not gone to sleep. I think i'm suffering from insomnia o.O Oh yes. Read Judith's blog and everytime I do, I get all touchy & sappy (what she usually says). Hahaha. I miss school ever so much. I miss greeting Ms Loke/Mr Tan every morning. I miss dragging myself all the way to level 4 with stones in my bag. I miss smiling and walking into class every Wednesdays. (English lesson 1st period. Heh heh heh) I miss pesterung LiJuan & YueJiao for sweets in the morning. I miss skipping (literally) to the water cooler and saying "hello" to everyone else on my way there. I miss looking into the other classes everytime I go to the toilet, thinking "HA HA HA! POA." or "HA HA HA. BIO!" I miss Sam Soo and his bedek banyak stories. I miss running into anyone and everyone while making my way to the canteen. I miss going to the General Office to look for Henry Kwek. I miss rushing to the library after school in order to get seats. I miss ogling at the OKAY looking teachers. (seriously, there are only about 2/3) I miss gossiping about teachers/students/school attendants.

I miss EVG.

If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you've made me smile, the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hand.

No no no, I'm back to my normal self. Boring you might call it. It's just sane & definitely more rational. Guys nowadays just don't know how to erm, potray their inborn boyish charm anymore. Tsktsk, what a waste! The minute I saw shcyenwjc's pictures, my heart went OH MY GOD! (aka sungguh tak berkenan) Hahahahaha. Mean I know. But it's my life, I should have every right to choose okay! Besides, I'm not desperate ^^ I'm happy this way. Wait a minute, who am I explaining to again? Bahhhhh.

I'm worrying, I'm beginning to lose my cool a little. It's been a week and I haven't received a confirmation letter from MDIS. Omannnnnnnnn, soon please? I heard that Poly will only start in April/July. You must be kidding me. Like, I could grow a beard just waiting for school to begin. Madness! Oh yes! Sorry to my dear Yana Banana. Can't make it tomorrow as I'll be following parents to Johore.

(8:53 PM) cradle your ladl: yana banana! sorrrrrrrrrrrry.
(8:53 PM) liyana ?: no problem
(8:53 PM) liyana ?: not fated maybe
(8:54 PM) cradle your ladl: haha, yeah. seeeeeemingly so.
(8:54 PM) cradle your ladl: grrr, sorry again!
(8:55 PM) liyana ?: takpeeeee

Sorry again dearest!

I am right. Do I know myself best or whatttttttt? It lasted for 1 night ONLY. Hahahahahaha! I was taken aback when I saw how much shcyenwjc changed. HAHAHA FUNNY. Only I know how much I wanted to slap myself for thinking so far. Tsktsktsk.

3 words. Nothing more, nothing less.

*clears throat*

NOT GONNA HAPPEN.
:):)

Okay. So there's this weird man/boy who keeps telling me "just you wait. i will try my best & will show you" How dare he -.-" After years of not being in touch, he appears and decide to change my life? How dare he even think about implementing such a shaky, irresolute plan & expect me to fall for it. Pfffffffffffft. Buster, try all you want. Cs *inserts Shania Twain's voice* that don't impress me much :)

Anyhow, there's this other person that has also *poofed* out of my life years ago but is now, back. Back back back. To let or not to let. Heh heh heh. Omg I know I sound like a cheeky monkey, but hey. It's been years! :P However, I'm sticking to my How To Grow Up and be Successful plan. Study, work, marry, reproduce, and get my Black Baby (aka RX300) Ala, you all macam faham onlyyyyyyyyyyy? ^^

Oh one more thing. I've noticed that everyone is beginning to relike and relove everyone else. Hua hua. After all of the gossips and backstabbing. I guess it all just dies out once we stop. Like, "When the buying stops, the killing can too!" I'm hyper for all the good reasons in the world. Hyper as in, OMG OMG OMG I JUST RECEIVED A TEXT hyper. Bwahahahahahahahaha. *slaps self* This shall only last for tonight, promise.

You, yes you you you. No way am I gna entertain you. No more Seoul Garden for me and it's all cause of you. How very selfish. Grrrrrrrrrrrrr. On second thought, it's actually fine. I don't really like the idea of eating out & still having to work for your food. Yay me!

Till then, goodnight all!

"You can buy your hair if it won't grow
You can fix your nose if you said so
You can buy all the make up
That M.A.C. can make
But if you can't look inside you
Find out, who am I to
Be in the position to make me feel
So damn unpretty
I'll make you feel unpretty too"

Staying at home everyday is getting mundane. Feb 18th come faster, come! Okay random. I want to go shopping. Lone shopping. But no $$ how?! ROB THE BANK AH -.-" Oh yesyesyes. Might be meeting dearest Yana Banana this Wednesday :):) InsyaAllah kan Yana? Lol if I manage to decide what we'll do when we're out at least. Oh anddddddddddd. He's back! HE IS BACK :P How very exciting. Meet soon, yes? Heh heh.

I hope this will come true, all of it.

(1:40 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: because in a blinkk of an eye, we'll be like 25 or smth?
(1:40 AM) crumble.: HAHAHA.
(1:40 AM) crumble.: bedek!
(1:40 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: LOL
(1:40 AM) crumble.: but yeah, i get yr drift.
(1:40 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: i know!
(1:40 AM) crumble.: skjp lagi 17.
(1:40 AM) crumble.: then dah 18. amek licence. wooooooooooooo.
(1:40 AM) crumble.: k then.
(1:40 AM) crumble.: ):
(1:40 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: reallly. kan baru smlm masuk evg, first day looking like a lost human.
(1:41 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: licnese kepeee. hahaha.
(1:41 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: we take 2ggthr nak tak ^^
(1:41 AM) crumble.: hahaha nak!
(1:41 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: then it'll be a reunion. ajak ur besf skali
(1:41 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: den we race satu spore. kbedekkkkkkkkkkkkkk
(1:42 AM) crumble.: HAHA my bestf owes me car lifts.
(1:42 AM) crumble.: she should get hers first!
(1:42 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: aahahhaa
(1:42 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: means
(1:43 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: u'll be ard 20 b4 u get urs
(1:43 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: hahaha
(1:43 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: coz she'll hafta take th test.. pass..
(1:43 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: all tat
(1:43 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: den u cn ride.
(1:44 AM) crumble.: HAHAHA. nevermind. i pass also ill make sure she buy a car dulu.
(1:45 AM) crumble.: wahahaha eh we 3 invest in a car!
(1:45 AM) crumble.: LOL.
(1:45 AM) crumble.: imagine.
(1:45 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: HAHAHAHAHHAHA
(1:45 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: U NOE WHAT I IMAGINED
(1:45 AM) crumble.: mcm fun! then all go U ardy. then.
(1:45 AM) crumble.: you two fetch me from MDIS.
(1:45 AM) crumble.: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
(1:45 AM) crumble.: FUN NYE.
(1:45 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: 3 OF US IN BUSINESS SUITS AND HEELS AND MCM FAHAM, HOLDING ONTO CELL PHONES
(1:45 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: HAHAHAH
(1:45 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: yah!
(1:46 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: sddnnly tht scene popped into my mind.
(1:46 AM) crumble.: HAHAHAHA.
(1:46 AM) crumble.: COOL KAN COOL KAN.
(1:46 AM) crumble.: INSYA ALLAH.
(1:46 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: YAH! hahahaa
(1:46 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: den when we invested alot2
(1:46 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: we can spend our money
(1:46 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: travelling D
(1:46 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: *
(1:46 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: 2gthr!
(1:46 AM) crumble.: WE BUY LEXUS RX300 OKAY!
(1:46 AM) crumble.: HAHAHAHA.
(1:46 AM) crumble.: then we go jb alllllll.
(1:46 AM) " ||fArAh|| " [: YEAH! hahaha. omg cool kan.
(1:46 AM) crumble.: sorry ah but im enjoying this.
(1:46 AM) crumble.: WAHAHAHA.

I want to update ever so badly. Because today was really good. After so long, I laughed so hard so much & so loudly. Okay initially I thought I didn't want to update cs I can't upload the pictures yet. But heck! I'm in the mood.

Saturday Saturday Saturday.

Left home at 9am. Went to teach, forgetting to bring along my phone. How could I have survived without a phone?! God -.-" But nah. I was in a rush so I didn't make a U-turn. (No I don't drive) Came home to find that I have a missed call from Zuzazi. Huahua. That is her actual name in my phonebook. Anyways! She was out on a job hunt. (If you're a perfectionist then don't read the next few lines cs it'll be in really horrible English.) Zu. Tak payah kerja sudah. Like, stay home chill, sit back & relax. Order KFC everyday. Watch American Idol, laugh at their constipated faces & wrong hair-dos. Enjoy life while you still can lah. If you're worried about gaining weight, go mustaffa centre and wait at the alleys. When a bangla approaches you, start running. They'll chase, for sure. Do it every night. You'll lose weight just like that! *snaps fingers* Oh and there'll be a queue every night. Kencang seh kencang seh kencang seh! If i'm free on that day, I'll come join you. K? ^^

Okay, random. For Zuzazi only lah that portion. Moving on........ (Mcm NE Tour)
Went to PS with parents & sis. After so long, we finally spent time together. I missed the smell of the car. HAHAHAHA. Headed for StarHub. Did the necessary and that was when the non-stop walking began. We went to Arab St for briyani (nat mcm faham. pakai braces nak makan nasi briyani -.-") The service there is like, the best. Wink here and there and you can even get a plate for free! HAHA. No! We didn't do anything like that. While eating, received a text from Farhana (pri sch bestfriend) asking about where I am & if I'll be joining them.

Them = Cikgu Hamidah & her son, Hijazi (the smartest boy I have ever met), Adilah (very lovely girl), Farhana (pri sch bestfriend! ^^), Suhaimee (this boy has issues, trust me), Alfan (the boy who swallowed a mic. grrrrr), Al-Matin (he needs smaller pants), Shila Shida (the first pair of twins i've ever known. survived kindergarten & pri sch together), Mashali (maggi mee boy), Syafiq (old neighbour & used-to-be dwarf), Syahmi (BALDI! HAHAHAHAHAHA.) I think that was all. We were supposed to have a gathering. Oh we did lah actually. They've changed too much, though /: Oh and smoking! They smoke ): Guys, don't lah? HAHA. Don't burn your lungs please. Kthanks. Met up with them at MarinaSq. Did the usual catching up, laughed here & there. And then I left. The closest people to me in pri sch weren't around so I figured I might as well just leave. Met up with parents yet again. (saved me an adult fare home. HAHA. yes, i'm cheap ^^) I'll upload the pics soon.

So we then walked around MarinaSq. I am so in love with Zara. HAHA. Like, I would buy the whole store and just marry it as well. But I might change the name. To a more manly one. LOL. Right, random. Walked and walked and walked. Like our lives depended on walking like that. Madness. Left around 7 gitu. Went to cwp after that (peminat setia cwp, confirm) Met up with brother sis in law & sandeep. Oh and and and. I met Riah Dearest! (I might type her name like that. but ive never called her Riah. HAHA) Okay more like poked her back and said Hello. LOL. Very polite, I know (: Chatted for a good 15mins or so. Hahaha webcam kan? Is that supposed to be a secret? Oh man, sorry. Ps: Thanks for making my sunday ;)

(Oh man my room light's flickering. Scary! :\)

I miss Farah Hanis Bte Md Yusoff ): Really! I do. Been awhile since we spent time together. Like, I realised that I really had many laughters with her. Whether she likes it or not, she'll always have to entertain my crap. Okay, everyone has to put with that. But I don't know lah! It's overwhelming this time round. Boooooooooo. And bestfriend! Bestfried ): I miss you tooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. Must meet up sooooon okay Farah Aishah. Heh heh mcm faham.

I'll post some pictures once I can upload them. Takecare All.

Say what you want, I shan't snap back. I shall just absorb everything you say, allow myself to crumble bit by bit, feel everything within me fall apart & hear you say hooray. Really, I feel like I'm going to break down. It's coming it's coming.

I'm living in fear now. I have to prepare myself for the worst every morning because all that you've said has poisoned my mind. Grrrrrrrrrr. I really cannot wait for school to start. At least I'll be occupied & wouldn't have to spend the whole day thinking about whatever you would say.

I need someone to make me laugh. Like, "HAHA I AM ME AGAIN" laugh.

PS: No offence, but don't bother. The one who can do that, has "poof-ed" out of my life.

):):):

I need to stop ending my posts with 3 sad smilies.

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